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To Be Determined

by Terror At Space Camp

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1.
(imposter) 04:10
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Paranoid and maladroit I walk in a giant's shoes In the light of pure morning I'm scared of what shines through Disarmer, snake charmer I know I'm the imposter One day the cracks will show This will all be torn asunder You'll never You'll never work in this town again Booksmart, silver tongue I string together pretty words Selling the stuff of dreams I get more than I'm worth Rumors and hearsay Every liar makes their own grave When the truth comes calling I'll be dealt the ace of spades You'll never You'll never work in this town again I stand on someone's else shoulders I stand where someone could've thrived Someone's standing in my shadow I've stolen someone else's life You'll never You'll never work in this town again
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(tattoo) 05:26
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You spent the night hunting witches Did you find your mark? Was it all you dreamed of When you stabbed them in the heart? Did the angels praise you, So virtuous and true? When the blood won't wash off What will you do? You left me with a scar I'll say it's a new tattoo You left me with a scar I think it looks better on you It looks like I'm the monster Chased in the moonlight It looks like you're the monster Revealed in the daylight A victory for all that's good So virtuous and true While you were digging my grave One was dug for you You left me with a scar I'll say it's a new tattoo You left me with a scar I think it looks better on you All hail the conquering hero...
3.
(wreck) 03:09
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Fell through a trap door I'm crawling in the dark Scratched up tarot cards Say I'm gonna fall apart Sick to my stomach A pair of trembling hands This isn't going like I planned Nervous wreck, Nervous wreck In desperate need of care Nervous wreck, Nervous wreck Nearly broken beyond repair Dirty corridors of the mind Like an unmade head Thoughts like spiders Chaos in my head Having delusions No one understands This isn't going like I planned Nervous wreck, Nervous wreck In desperate need of care Nervous wreck, Nervous wreck Nearly broken beyond repair A-G-O-N-I-Z-E A-G-O-N-I-Z-E A-G-O-N-I-Z-E This isn't going like I planned Nervous wreck, Nervous wreck In desperate need of care Nervous wreck, Nervous wreck Nearly broken beyond repair
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(preoccupation) 04:57
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The sound of church bells Made me nervous as a child I hated how dirt felt Stuck underneath my nails Always held my breath Passing all the graveyards I told all my friends We would all be ghosts one day I've always had a certain preoccupation I couldn't leave the dark alone A love affair with the hereafter Waiting for death to come to my home Buried the baby sparrow That died falling out the tree Spent my midnights Talking to the stars Never walked in the shadow Of the slender men Who spoke in whispers On Sunday afternoons I've always had a certain preoccupation I couldn't leave the dark alone A love affair with the hereafter Waiting for death to come to my home Broken black crayon Rolled underneath the chair Where grandma sat And it always felt cold Hated the colors From when I shut my eyes Wondered if that would be The last thing I ever saw I've always had a certain preoccupation I couldn't leave the dark alone A love affair with the hereafter Waiting for death to come to my home
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(lucid) 04:43
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I know the taste of blood Chasing rabbits in the snow Light catches my eyes Where did all the time go Shut these heavy lids Body in despair twists The mind, the enemy Lost moments of bliss I grind my teeth Stranger in the land of sleep Unsettled in my head I die in lucid dreams Sour taste in my mouth Decay on my breath Hauntings in my mind I see faces of death The ticking of the clock A race against the sun Frantic desperation For peace that never comes I grind my teeth Stranger in the land of sleep Unsettled in my head I die in lucid dreams When I sleep I think of you The tempests start to rise Sharp teeth against my tongue A war inside my mind Morning starts to creep An old familiar ache Threadbare against the world So fragile I could break I grind my teeth Stranger in the land of sleep Unsettled in my head I die in lucid dreams
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(distances) 05:52
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I polished all the China While you drank yourself to sleep You woke up with full of anger Took out all your rage on me Sat there feeling blackeyed Accepted all apologies Lullabies of vitriol As I tried to get to sleep And you wonder (you wonder) What caused these distances Saw you punch my brother While mother called me queer You gambled away the money That we really needed here Told me you were leaving Just to see if I would cry Got a bad case of depression And you left me there to die And you wonder (you wonder) What caused these distances I made sure all the mirrors Were streak free and clear As I wondered if this was the truth Behind your teenage years This wasn't like the TV shows This wasn't like my friends I prayed in the corner That you wouldn't drink again And you wonder (you wonder) What caused these distances
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(michelle) 03:43
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You think the worst of me On my best of days I'm a fallen angel Who somehow lost their way My blood is dirty Forked tongue behind my teeth Throw your stones I don't need someone to save me Michelle, I run with the sinners tonight Michelle, I have no home in the light Michelle, I don't subscribe to your afterlife Michelle, I run with the sinners tonight I'm not here to listen To your righteous indignation Sorry but I'll have to Decline the invitation My life's not Hurting anyone But you're the one Who points the loaded gun Michelle, I run with the sinners tonight Michelle, I have no home in the light Michelle, I don't subscribe to your afterlife Michelle, I run with the sinners tonight Won't live my life in shame Won't carry all your blame I won't take on all that pain It's hard out here for a snake Michelle, I run with the sinners tonight Michelle, I have no home in the light Michelle, I don't subscribe to your afterlife Michelle, I run with the sinners tonight
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(city) 04:48
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I am the king of rats I've got grime in my lungs Buildings fall like dominoes We're not having any fun Yellow teeth and dirty nails No one ever gets to sleep Ride trains to nowhere It's the eater of dreams This city loves you This city loves you to death This city loves you to death This city loves you Grind down our bones Money makes slaves Static in our heads We buy better graves Limelight suffocates Kills our golden years We are made of mistakes This will all end in tears This city loves you This city loves you to death This city loves you to death This city loves you
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(sheen) 06:08
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I need to be present I need to be accounted for Hide any blemishes Maybe I should smile more I appear in your story I am your new favorite character Reality is suspect A picture lasts forever Take another photograph I need to feed the machine Correct the light in my eyes I need to dull the sheen Do I seem relatable I should never share my politik If I ever shed a tear It must be single and perfect I'm a carefully crafted lie Made of half truths and omissions It's either be forgotten Or become a work of fiction Take another photograph I need to feed the machine Correct the light in my eyes I need to dull the sheen
10.
(crash) 03:35
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Sometimes I wanna crash your car Drive it headlong into the ocean Sink down to the floor below Take some time with this emotion Sometimes I wanna crash your car Just fall asleep at the wheel Drift right off the highway Because I don't know how to deal It's a matter of death It's a question of life How do you hold all this pain This emotional strife Sometimes I wanna crash your car Get listed among the missing Leave here without a trace Cuz I'm struggling with living Sometimes I wanna crash your car Going a hundred miles an hour Until this life becomes a blur I don't know myself anymore It's a matter of death It's a question of life How do you hold all this pain This emotional strife Life was beautiful Life was beautiful

about

This album may be listed as To Be Determined but you can call it whatever you want. The songs may have titles but you can call them whatever you want. If you find a connection to the songs here, customize them in your collection with your own titles.

This album was written for February Album Writing Month (FAWM) in the days after losing my father to the great global bastard. It's an album built on grief and a search for catharsis. The recording on the other hand was a sign that the light at the end of the tunnel does exist. It was recorded over Presidents Day Weekend 2022. The musicians came into this cold. It was recorded in a live setting with no overdubs. Whatever connection the musicians made to the music in the moment, I tried to capture. Some of the recordings are raw and still have some edges. A few got a mix to them but mostly it was a WYSIWYG affair.

A huge thank you to the musicians who decided to give up their time, come to the Witchhouse and gave their voices, creativity and energy to these songs. It not only helped me make these tunes come to fruition, it also helped restore some of my faith in humanity.

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released February 28, 2022

E. Niveous Rayside (Terror At Space Camp)- guitar, bass

Elana Low- vocals, harmonium
Eric Novak- bass
Jay Ackley- drums, production
Jeannie Skelly- guitar
Mallory Feuer- vocals, drums
Mama Pills- vocals, piano
Margo Goldstein- guitar, vocals
Matt Seneca- vocals, drums
R. Brookes McKenzie- vocals, omnichord, drums

Recorded at The Witchhouse in Staten Island, NY

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